I have been MIA here for a few weeks partially because I have been feeling like complete crap. Not only is this pregnancy kicking my ass (unlike my almost symptom-less previous three), but I have had pneumonia for the past two weeks and have been lying in bed like a complete lump! All I want to do is sleep, but it seems like the more I sleep, the more depressed I am beginning to feel.
I hate being cooped up in the house all day long—everyday, but really have nowhere to go and don’t feel well enough to do much of anything. It’s a vicious cycle. I thought that since I’ve been feeling so “blah” for the past week or so, that I would have a lot to say, but as it turns out trying to fight off these depressive feelings have taken all my words.
I am forcing myself to say something here because I know myself…the longer I stay away the harder it is for me to come back. Just like friends in the “real” world, the longer I don’t communicate with them, don’t write, call, etc., the harder it is for me to do so. I wonder why that is? Does everyone feel that way?